Est-ce que je me suis levé du pied gauche?

Lovely photo. <3

I love and hate French at the same time. It’s interesting to know how these two totally opposite emotions can co-exist inside this malnourished body of mine. Maybe that’s the exact reason why I’m feeling kinda insane right now. My heart is throbbing like shit. BOOM BOOM POWWWWWW! BOOM BOOM POWWWWW! Yeah the beat goes something like that. My mind is being boggled in a similar fashion as boggling  jueteng balls or bingo chips or birth-control pills. And my scrotum shrivels to the mere sound of the words “homework”, “essays”, “oral exams”, “assessments”. GAAAAAAAAARHHHHH I HATE THIS. *defenestrates meself* I guess that given that this circumstance of life is a subset of all possible circumstances of life in IB,  I should not be complaining at all. But I can’t help it! >.<

In less than two weeks, I have written almost a hundred pages of notes for French.  Mind you. WRITTEN. You know, using pen and paper? I have sacrificed my five other subjects and my ToK essay for the sake of  studying French. You know why?  Because I need to understand French grammar and build up my vocabulary – nouns, verbs, adjectives, adverbs, whatever – ASAP. Because my French oral exam is this month,  according to an unreliable source, and I still can’t fucking speak in French.

Je ne suis pas en forme, like seriously.

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It’s 11:10 in the evening and I have already written thirteen pages of French notes. I’ve been contemplating on whether or not I should just print my notes since they’re already nicely presented here.

Seriously. This website is one hundred times more effective than going for French lessons in school. I don’t know why, but suddenly the French frenzy I had during the first half of last year has been gradually coming back. Hopefully, I will be able to fully regain my interest in studying French not because I want to re-like the subject, but because I don’t want it to be a nuisance in my IB studies.

You see, I’ve been showing commendable performances for the rest of my subjects – except for French. That’s why it’s painful to see my stagnating progress report here at home, which states that

Rowland has impressed his teachers with the quality of his work, his application and his attitude. He has obviously laid a very solid foundation for his final assessment and his teachers believe that he will perform well, with the notable exception of French. It would be a shame if Rowland’s final grades were marred by one poor performance and given Rowland’s ability and attitude…… BLAH BLAH BLAH AHHH FUCK SHIT